Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Quick Vent

I was going to take and post my "before" pictures tonight. I was going to go for a walk with my baby. I read up on all your comments, blogs, and shout-outs today and felt good. I felt totally ready to conquer my evening.

Then I got off work, and a biker almost took me out. He made sure to grumble "WATCH IT FATTY" I almost lost it right there, I was so sad. Then I came in the door and the finace started criticizing me for being tired all the time. (on his behalf, he wasn't really being mean, but I was already in a sour mood at this point)

Point being, I AM tired. I was going to try tonight to really make an effort and exercise. Now I'm just down in the dumps. I know I should take my own advice and be positive, but I just can't am choosing not to right now. I seriously almost drive directly to the store, to pick up a frozen pizza, and eating the entire thing. I'm proud enough to say that I just literally stopped myself by writing this blog.

That being said, I fully intend to mope about the house tonight doing nothing. It's stupid and silly, but hey ... it's an improvement on my past behaviors. Tomorrow's a new day, right?


  1. ** note **
    This isn't meant to be a "feel sorry for Emily" post ... just wanted to share with you all my very common struggles. We all have them.

  2. That sucks, boo on him, karma's a bitch though so the universe will sort him out. And yes, you're doing better than before.

  3. Wow, what a [insert favourite expletive]!

    If that's how he talks to ladies, that bike is about as close as he'll ever come to feeling the power between his legs!

    It's him I feel sorry for, not you :)

  4. Rita - thanks for celebrating my progress with me, however small it might be! Every step gets me that much closer :)

    Mark - oh thank you, Mark! haha! I laughed out loud when I read your comment. I was just thinking to myself, man I hope a run into him again when I hit goal weight! ;)

  5. I remember being made fun of because I didn't belong anywhere. I was a military brat. Never fit in anywhere and still don't. I am my own person. Unique. Different. Myself.

    I have learned to feel confident about WHO I am and not WHAT I am whether it's short, homely, middle aged, etc. I am ME! No one's derogatory comments or name-calling affects me now.

    Let it go! People are mean, feel intimidated by anyone trying to better themselves and don't deserve your acknowledgement.

    Be confident in YOU! Believe in who you ARE! Not what you may look like at the moment. Anyone who matters, doesn't care about that.

    You know your fiance. Don't let him or his comments pull you down - prove him wrong! You had a bad day. That's okay. Make tomorrow better. Tell yourself that you won't let anyone bring you down. Look in the mirror in the morning and COMMIT to believe in yourself!

    Hope I didn't ramble too much! I know what you're feeling!

  6. Mercade - Wow, thanks for such a powerful comment! You made my whole day today. I am striving everyday to be a much more confident and strong person. Thanks for being a living inspiration. :)

    NEVER worry about rambling too much - those are my favorite kind of posts! haha

  7. You are a beautiful person, not "as you are" as a limitation because you aren't at your goal yet, but because of WHO you are. You radiate beauty, and peace and strength. You may not feel like you are strong and confident, but that is definitely the vibe you put out, and you have every right on this earth to do so. :)

  8. It always amazes me how many people have their head so far up their own *&% they randomly throw out insults. It's hard to brush it off but you have to believe they have the problem because they do, you are better than them!


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